medals, trophies. you must have a cabinet the size of the new york yankees. does any of that really motivate you? do you ever look at it and think, yeah, i haven't done badly for a young girl from brooklyn? >> every once in a while. i used to hide all these awards, then one day i was doing a new house and actually it was -- well, it was a long time ago, ten years ago, let's say. and i decided i'll put them in a room. you can't see them when you walk in, but they're there. and i do appreciate them now. i must say. i do say, oh, good, i was here. i'm still here, but i was here. you know, i think it's because my father -- and maybe you relate to this -- died so young that i want to be remembered. i want to have made a mark here. and records and films, television shows, you know, they do that. they say you existed, you were here.